Adding green smoothies to my daily diet!
As I stepped on the scale this morning my heart filled with terror!!! I’m currently 173 lbs. I will not go gentle into that good night. I shall never surrender!!! Today marks the first day of my weight loss challenge… Oh believe me I’ve tried losing weight before, but it never seems to stick. I’m the self proclaimed Yo-Yo Queen. Just a few weeks ago I lost approximately 5 pounds and gained them all back +3 more. Well this time I’m going to win the fight against this unwanted extra weight.
I won’t be so naïve. Losing the lbs will not be an easy thing to accomplish. Growing up I can remember my mother cooking almost everyday. One plate could include fried chicken or pork chops, collard greens with bacon (topped with hot sauce of course) cornbread, and Mac & cheese. In one sitting my caloric intake could probably equate to an entire days worth. Back then I was a lot younger and weight never seemed to be an issue.
Well my 26th year of life came around and the pounds started coming. All through my final high school years and up to age 25 I weighed anywhere from 145 to 150 (except for during my pregnancy which I quickly lost recovered from). I remember hitting 155 so clearly lol. I was 26 at the time. I was so happy thinking “finally, my womanly curves are here!!! Yayyyyy!” What I did not know is that I would soon gain 23 lbs and be 173 before my 28th birthday arrived.
Well today is a new day, a new chance for a fresh start. I’m dusting off my Insanity workout DVDS and whipping up some kale smoothies!! I plan to get as much walking/running in as possible. Right now my weight goal is to lose 23 lbs, but that could possibly change. It all depends on what looks good on me. I am determined not to be driven by numbers but rather how I feel. Lol, and currently I feel like I’ll look great 23 lbs lighter. Oh and I have lots of motivation. Within the next few months I have a few video/photo shoots, not to mention a wedding in which I’ll be a bridesmaid!! So what do you think? Can I do it? Welp we will just have to see!!!
Thank God that I am not easily broken. If I would have listened to what others would have had to say I’d have been down and out along time ago. I refuse to let someone else’s view shape my present or my future. I’m too much of a leader for that. Besides, I’ve always been the type of person to stand up for what I believe in and want. Although at times it may come off as pure rebelliousness, it’s not. I always root for the underdog to come out on top, maybe because I myself am an underdog. So go ahead and count me out. Think what you will, but I guarantee I’ll be victorious!!
With the help of a few online sites I came across this tidbit of information about successful people who were late bloomers. Julia Childs didn’t start learning how to cook until she was almost about 36. She didn’t lunch her popular show until she was 50. Stan Lee, the creator of Spiderman, didn’t start creating his superheroes until his 40’s. Sylvester Stallone was a deli counter attendant before he became Rocky in his 30’s. Harlan Sanders, the freaking Colonel Sanders of KFC was 66 when he began to promote his style of cooking that created his chicken empire!!!
Last but definitely not least……even JESUS didn’t start his ministry until he was approximately thirty years old!! Lol So count me out that’s fine. Please tell me again that it’s too late for me. I couldn’t care less about the doubts of others…but to do what it is that I love to do for a living is my dream and goal! To be able to express my feelings and touch other people is what I’m going after. So yes I’m 27 and I’m shooting for the stars. If anyone has a problem with it….it’s simply that….their problem!!!
Today was that day!! I finally had my photoshoot, and boy am I relieved that I got that out of the way. *wipes forehead* Whew! It all came together in the end, but let me tell ya, it was no walk in the park. I’ve been in stores purchasing chains, hooks, nail polish etc. I’m positive people were giving me the suspicious look. They were probably confused and intrigued all at the same time.
With all of my necessities purchased, I headed to the site. Now I’m not the most photogenic person and usually my nerves get the best of me. I don’t have a sexy bone in my body…..but eeer uhmmm I rocked that photoshoot today!!! I can’t wait to view the finished project and share it with you guys!
Also, I would like to take a moment to thank Terasha Beavers for my hair/ makeup. She did such a wonderful job fitting the style in with the theme of the shoot. The photos were done by Kimberly Michael’s Photography. I have so many words for these photos but I’ll share just one…. FIERCE! S/O to these ladies, because without them I would not have had such a successful photoshoot.
Check out this behind the scenes picture of me goofing around at the photoshoot!
*Scratches head* Sitting here thinking about tomorrow’s photo shoot has caused me to think about my image and how I would like to be portrayed as an artist. As a woman I want to feel beautiful, empowering, and have a bit of sex appeal. These are the ideas that I want to carry with me and base my look upon. I don’t want to have to stick to a certain style in hopes of targeting or keeping a certain fan base. My style should reflect my personality, and that my friends, is a combination of many things.
So I’ve turned the idea of my image over in my head a few times. Will I be this sexy seductress, this spunky misfit, some rocking rebel, or the girl next door? You want to know what I’ve decided??? I’ve decided to be it all!! We all have different sides to us. My style varies from day to day now. So why would I change that? I’ve noticed some artists seem to stick to certain looks, and I can’t help but think it’s solely to satisfy their fans. Personally I don’t want that factor influencing my decisions right now or ever.
The truth of the matter is that I’m always changing. The music that I write is all across the board and so is my personality. My look will definitely mirror that. They say image is everything. Well I hope I’m making the right decision by trying to stay true to myself. Any who, the big photoshoot for my EP cover is tomorrow. I hope the “image” comes out amazing. Wish me luck!!!
So, I’ve decided to document my journey to make it in the music industry (pardon me while I *old school raise the roof* lol). I’m not attempting to have some high traffic blogspot or anything. I just want a little room to utilize as a release. For any of you who do choose to read I’ll probably be venting like a raving lunatic one minute, and then bursting with joy the next. So excuse me in advance if I ever seem a little unhinged lol.
Alright, since this is my first entry I’ll give a little bit of background info on myself. I was born in December of 1984 (and yes that means I’m 27 years old for those of you who started counting in your head). I am the last of 5 kids, raised by both my father and mother. I grew up in a small town called Camden AL. For a long time my talents went without nurture or even notice. There was never a huge emphasis on the arts in my hometown or in my household. I’ve always loved music though. I’d write lyrics and ideas for visual concepts that would soon find their way into a binder stored away into the back of my closet….or a trashcan.
Fast forward to 2012 where I finally have the confidence to showcase my talent and try to make it in this music industry!! Approximately 2 months ago I started writing and recording my soon to be released EP. S/O to the homie Rafeal Andres for majority of the tracks, and the homie Shuwnray who helped me cook up the EP! I know I worried the heck out of this guy about the mixing. That’s why they call me white on rice shawty… lol I kid. I kid. Seriously though, I couldn’t have done it without them. I’ve titled this mini body of work The Initiation, which includes five tracks. If time permitted there would have been a little pop/ rock included, but alas, it did not. Therefore, this body of work is completely hiphop.
With the EP complete, what’s left is to create some fly cover art. I came up with this dope concept. (crosses fingers and squints eyes really hard) I just hope that it translates well in the picture. I’m setting up a photo shoot for next week. Tamekia Bass, who is a close friend of mine, will be styling me. Who will stylee my hair and make up??? I have no clue. I’m so last minute, but I’m sure I’ll work it oooooout next week! Hopefully I can recruit my new found friend Terasha to tame my mane. Any who, wish me luck!
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